Hi so this is what you click when you want to get to know me? Was not a question but I used a question mark anyway. GOOD! cx
I’m a sixteen year old girl who lives in the United States (A lot of people ask me where I’m from and quite a few people think I’m English c:)
I like to listen to Indie/Metalcore/Dubstep/alternative/some deathcore/happy hardcore. I absolutely detest country music o: c:
This is a thinspo blog that I run, as you can see, I’ve had weight/body issues since I was in the fourth grade. I decided in the ninth grade that I really, really wanted to lose weight, and how I did that, was when I found a pro-ana blog. Yay. >.< But absolutely not. I moved from my absolute favorite place in the world to a new least favorite place in the world. It might as well be a polar opposite to where I came from, it’s dry and lonely here. My mum and her airheaded, promiscuous ways turned out to be more effective and harmful than I ever could have imagined.
I had one of the greatest childhoods ever. I think in fourth grade it was a little shaky, but not horrifying. Nothing ever became bad until the 7th grade, but then even that turned out to be amazing. I suppose in some ways my life has never been truly, “bad”, depending on how you look at it. But I do know that no matter what my life was like, I became overcome with feelings of depression, anxiety, and horrible self esteem.
I’ve cut. Binged. Purged. And starved. My longest fast was probably 5 days. Hm. And that is not okay. Even considering these things, I do not have an eating disorder. Or never have, even at my lowest point, and highest point of eating disordered thinking.
I think I’m happier now. One day, a couple weeks back, I just woke up and for some reason didn’t feel like dying. I woke up and felt like maybe I do have some point in living. I woke up and just didn’t want to cut myself again. I felt as if even though I ate a little too much like it would be okay, and that I didn’t have to purge. I felt like tomorrow would be better eating wise and that then that day would just be good anything-else wise. I felt so much better inside my head. I guess my father didn’t see it because he still says I’m dark and should be happy. c: </3
My favorite color is purple. I love apples and tea and coffee so much. I like to sit around in coffee shops and read. I like thrift shopping and have for basically my whole life. (I was born a hipster?) I want to do better in school this year. I’m in the 10th grade. I don’t really have any friends at school. Just a few people who I talk to to get me through the day swiftly.
I love LedaMonsterBunny. She is truly amazing. She inspires me so much. Plus, she lost a lot a lot a lot of weight. But she inspired me and I loved her even before I knew this. That was just kind of like the cinnamon to the apple when I heard that c: c:
I live in a conservative town where it is not okay to look a certain way, because they think it is bad, but over half of the teenage population partakes in drugs and horrible behavior and honestly, what kind of druggy pays for weird hair dye or piercings when they’re probably seeing colorful hair in their heads and the piercings or whatever would just cost too much anyway? (Um. Yeah. By “partaking” I mean, they’re addicted. A lot of them are.)
I want my tongue pierced, a septum piercing, snake bites, small stretched ears, just tiny, and um, the side of my nose. A lot of people would say that is cute, but I don’t really tell them anything else, except for my very loving and accepting, and super cool best friend c:
I’ve smoked twice in my life. Once a pipe of that lovely Mary Jane. It was weird. I didn’t really like it at all, really. Apparently I didn’t smoke enough, but meh. Then a hookah, which tasted okay. I mean, it wasn’t very good, and it didn’t do anything to me, which was all that I was looking for at the time. Something to release my pain and sadness. Wrong way to go.
I like Victorian Houses and want to live in a Mansion. I love the Beauty and the Beast. Best. Disney. Movie. Ever. I love vintage things. I love deadmau5. I like the smell of old books and I want a library just like Belle’s.
I love and appreciate everyone who follows me. I love my friends, most of the time. c: c:
I would very much love to start making videos, but I have made that a prize for losing weight lololol. I’m making a progress blog, but no pictures or anything are up, and I won’t really be releasing it or whatever until probably December? I don’t know.
But here’s my about me. And I might add more or something and something and stuff later if need be. :3 And if you want to know anything else I’ll probably answer anything you ask me c: